My Worries...

I don't type out my health issues on here usually, but I have really been needing to write and so here it is. It's actually been a long and very frustrating road for me. I went from one doctor telling me there was nothing wrong to one telling me it might be acid reflex, to the next telling me I was crazy. So he didn't really tell me that I was crazy, but he basically did. About 2 years ago now just shortly after I had The Diva I went to the doctor because I could feel this lump in my throat. After he asked a few questions and an exam of my neck he came to the conclusion that it was my thyroid. It felt full and he wanted to get to the bottom of this right away. Well..he did the blood tests and an ultra sound of my thyroid. I went back after a week and he came in saying that nothing was wrong. Wait? Didn't you just tell me my thyroid was full? That means it's big right? So can I have an enlarged thyroid but nothing be wrong? Yes was his answer.

My husband and a few friends thought it would be a good idea to get a second opinion and so I did. Well...this guy was sure that it was all in my head. Sometimes you can have a lot of stress (I should have never told him I had 5 kids) you can feel like you have a lump in your throat. Well he did the blood test too and it all came back inconclusive. So he wanted me to retest in 6 months.

So here I am no one wants to believe me that I actually feel a lump in my throat. They ignore all my other symptoms and push them off on postpartum depression and stress. I lay awake at night because I can't fall asleep because I feel like I am being gagged all night long. Eating hasn't been very much fun because...well...I have a lump in my throat and it's gotten worse.

While I was pregnant I started having heart palpitations. It was like my heart was skipping a beat. My husband would like to think that it was him that caused this, but know honey that you do make my heart skip a beat...just not like this. There were times when it felt as if my heart was going to beat out of my chest because it was beating so fast. I couldn't make it to my OB when I felt like I needed to go in because of it so I went to a doctor in town. She figured it was the same thing...everyone comes to the conclusion that it's my thyroid. But because I was pregnant and pregnancy can cause thyroid issues that later go away they didn't want to do anything. This same doctor was the same one who later told me that it was acid reflex. Hmmmm...can you see the frustration going on in my life?

Well just a few weeks ago I went to the doctor for some issues I have been having since having The Baby. Nothing to do with my thyroid. I just wanted to get everything check out. Well...all of that is fine. Nothing to worry about. But I didn't say anything to her and she says "Has anyone checked your thyroid?" Oh boy! I did not want to deal with another doctor who thought there was a problem but then was going to end up not doing anything because the test came back inconclusive. So she said that she would help me for sure. So I went for more blood work and another ultrasound.

GUESS WHAT??? Well if you guessed nothing was wrong you are wrong! I have two cysts on my thyroid...2. When I first found out I was a bit excited because this meant that all along I was NOT crazy and I was right...I knew something wasn't right! But the longer I wait for the specialist to get back to me the more I have to wonder and worry about what they will need to do. Will they just treat it with medication or will they have to take it out? Most people I know who have had cysts have needed to have their thyroid removed. Then I think about all that may happen and then I try to remember to rest in God. Hopefully I will hear from the specialist soon.