Where have I gone? Some days I just feel like I am missing me. I don't know where I have gone or what has taken over...but it just feels like the real me is gone and I have become someone else.
Sometimes I feel like I am stuck under the pile of laundry. Or perhaps I am lost in the load or two or five of dishes that still need to be done. I have become that distant voice you hear in the distance who is getting frustrated with her kids. Not using the nicest of words...a shame too when that is what I expect of my kids.
It's like all of a sudden I let these things define me. I let them become who I am. The terrible housekeeper. The lazy dishwasher. The angry parent. None of these things are who I am. Why so often do I let others and the world tell me who I am? Why do I listen so closely to them and believe them? Why do I take their word over God's?
Often times I need to slow down and remember why God says I am. I need to listen to His words.
Zechariah 2:8 For this is what the Lord Almighty says: "After the Glorious One has sent me against the nations that have plundered you- for whoever touches you touches the apple of his eye-"
Romans 8:1 Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,
Romans 8:17 Now if we are children, then we are heirs - heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.
Matthew 5:13 You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.
Isaiah 49:16 See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.
Colossians 2:10 and in Christ you have been brought to fullness. He is the head over every power and authority.
There are so many more I could write. But in the end...I am going to listen to God. Going to listen to what he thinks of me. And in listening to what He thinks of me I become more confident in who I am. I become stronger in the areas I am weak in.